I've been through the 4th of the month 17 times so far.
I keep thinking that if I don't post on the 4th... or even think about posting on the 4th... it won't be so bad. I can get through the day (or actually three days) without this crushing ache of mournfulness.
It's not true. Nothing helps. Trying to sleep through the day doesn't help. Being busy doesn't help. Distraction doesn't help. Nothing helps.
Woowoo says it's my nervous system. "Your nervous system knows these things." she says "...knows the cycle - feels the days. Even more than your brain knows... your nervous system knows."
And my heart knows.
I keep thinking that if I don't post on the 4th... or even think about posting on the 4th... it won't be so bad. I can get through the day (or actually three days) without this crushing ache of mournfulness.
It's not true. Nothing helps. Trying to sleep through the day doesn't help. Being busy doesn't help. Distraction doesn't help. Nothing helps.
Woowoo says it's my nervous system. "Your nervous system knows these things." she says "...knows the cycle - feels the days. Even more than your brain knows... your nervous system knows."
And my heart knows.
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