No such thing. I can't write much about this, but I have to at least give it an attempt.
Sometimes music helps. Sometimes it doesn't. So many memories. So many connections.
When I try to empty my mind, it doesn't really empty. I can get rid of the stuff that's there: make an appointment for blood work - call American Home Health about getting oxygen - text Brynn and congratulate her on her tournament win yesterday - what kind of bird is that - Sim is back from vacation - geez, my forehead hurts - these sandals are shot - and on... and on... and on...
But as soon as one thing slides out, it's replaced by another. As long as I'm busy, the thoughts are busy. When I slow my mind, try to relax, I lose control of the thoughts and the ones that slide in are images of Greg - hanging in his workshop - or on the autopsy table - or screaming through the house - exploding out the front door as two ambulances and three police cars pull up to the house, lights flashing - or crying in my arms.
How do I empty those thoughts and images from my mind - my heart - my entire being? Oh! I wish I could.
Rest your brain.
No computer.
No texting.
You can't heal without resting your brain.
No reading.
Very limited television.
Did you know your brain can take from 100 to 500 times longer to heal if you don't rest it?
No jewelry.
Stop planning.
Stop thinking.
REST!
Can't do it
Sometimes music helps. Sometimes it doesn't. So many memories. So many connections.
When I try to empty my mind, it doesn't really empty. I can get rid of the stuff that's there: make an appointment for blood work - call American Home Health about getting oxygen - text Brynn and congratulate her on her tournament win yesterday - what kind of bird is that - Sim is back from vacation - geez, my forehead hurts - these sandals are shot - and on... and on... and on...
But as soon as one thing slides out, it's replaced by another. As long as I'm busy, the thoughts are busy. When I slow my mind, try to relax, I lose control of the thoughts and the ones that slide in are images of Greg - hanging in his workshop - or on the autopsy table - or screaming through the house - exploding out the front door as two ambulances and three police cars pull up to the house, lights flashing - or crying in my arms.
How do I empty those thoughts and images from my mind - my heart - my entire being? Oh! I wish I could.
Rest your brain.
No computer.
No texting.
You can't heal without resting your brain.
No reading.
Very limited television.
Did you know your brain can take from 100 to 500 times longer to heal if you don't rest it?
No jewelry.
Stop planning.
Stop thinking.
REST!
Can't do it
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