I have learned:
1. That lack of sleep is my enemy. It steals perspective and makes me unable to think clearly (which is a problem now, even with a good night's sleep).
2. That seeing a red Silverado truck with a ladder rack makes me cry.
3. That I need "down time" every day. Lupus and lung fibrosis have always required rest, but I've been known to push that from time to time. I have a bad habit of "powering through". Grief exacts a huge payment for ignoring down time. It's hard enough without penalty points.
4. To be grateful that Greg knew that I loved him and that I know that he loved me - I can feel his love all around me - and see his love everywhere in my house. Although I'm not sure of much of anything right now, this feels like a pretty sure thing to me. (which means I'm expecting someone or something to come along and take that from me)
5. That although no one can possibly understand how I feel unless they've lost a child - I'm thankful for the people who care and offer love and support. I'm astounded by their kindness.
1. That lack of sleep is my enemy. It steals perspective and makes me unable to think clearly (which is a problem now, even with a good night's sleep).
2. That seeing a red Silverado truck with a ladder rack makes me cry.
3. That I need "down time" every day. Lupus and lung fibrosis have always required rest, but I've been known to push that from time to time. I have a bad habit of "powering through". Grief exacts a huge payment for ignoring down time. It's hard enough without penalty points.
4. To be grateful that Greg knew that I loved him and that I know that he loved me - I can feel his love all around me - and see his love everywhere in my house. Although I'm not sure of much of anything right now, this feels like a pretty sure thing to me. (which means I'm expecting someone or something to come along and take that from me)
5. That although no one can possibly understand how I feel unless they've lost a child - I'm thankful for the people who care and offer love and support. I'm astounded by their kindness.
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