Monday
A couple of days ago, A friend (we'll call her "R") of Greg's (since they were in 2nd grade) invited Michael and me to dinner on Monday (today... or well... last night since it's 2:00 am.)
I asked her if I could let her know on Monday. She sweetly replied that I could.
This morning looked like it would be another day like the last 3. Or was it 4? The days bleed into each other and I can't remember what day it is. Brain fog.
Anyway... this morning I could feel the arrhythmia in my heart, I was conscious of every breath. I know that this sadness is here to stay, in one form or another - but I need a break from the grief today."
So, I wrote to R and told her Michael and I would come. I wasn't sure how long I'd be able to stay, but I knew I needed to go. R's sister D was also coming with her three children. An opportunity to love and be loved is always healing.
Burgers on the grill - a chance to meet D's children - to see R's grown son and meet her husband. Although Michael was exhausted (I'm a lot of work lately), he was glad he went. I would liked to say I had a cry-free night. I didn't. But I was with people who know me and understand.
I'm glad I went.
A couple of days ago, A friend (we'll call her "R") of Greg's (since they were in 2nd grade) invited Michael and me to dinner on Monday (today... or well... last night since it's 2:00 am.)
I asked her if I could let her know on Monday. She sweetly replied that I could.
This morning looked like it would be another day like the last 3. Or was it 4? The days bleed into each other and I can't remember what day it is. Brain fog.
Anyway... this morning I could feel the arrhythmia in my heart, I was conscious of every breath. I know that this sadness is here to stay, in one form or another - but I need a break from the grief today."
So, I wrote to R and told her Michael and I would come. I wasn't sure how long I'd be able to stay, but I knew I needed to go. R's sister D was also coming with her three children. An opportunity to love and be loved is always healing.
Burgers on the grill - a chance to meet D's children - to see R's grown son and meet her husband. Although Michael was exhausted (I'm a lot of work lately), he was glad he went. I would liked to say I had a cry-free night. I didn't. But I was with people who know me and understand.
I'm glad I went.
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