Sunday, July 9, 2017

Day 5?

The days are blurring into one long sadness.  Today was a hard one.  Each hour seemed to last two hours.  I watched the clock as the hours snailed through the day - and the night.

The days seem endless.  I wake up waiting for bedtime and I go to bed dreading morning.  Will that ever change?


Waves of sadness and anger today - one replaces the other - with pockets of gratitude.  What will tomorrow bring?  I pray it's not worse.

Tomorrow is Monday - Richard goes back to work.  It's been comforting knowing that he's been available if I needed him.  At some point I have to let go, but I don't want to.  He keeps me afloat - throws me the life preserver of his calm voice, hugs, caring, laughter - keeps me from drowning in sadness. 


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